i've been left

halloooww....

it back to december!!!

hohoho....

mmg december ni bln yg slalu org nk tingglkn ak....
n ak tingglkn  org...
ade ke?

mse ak drjah 5 dlu,
arwah mak n ayah tingglkn ak sorg2 kt uma...
brani x brani la ak mse tu...
nape ak d tingglkn?
sbb mak wat surgery or chemo or follow up kt hkl mse tu...
pak uteh ak advise ayah to accompany mak d hkl...
so, ak start bljr b'dikari...
nseb ak baik, sbb sblh uma ade uma makcu...
bl mlm, ak tmpang tdo uma die...
siang ak g skola...
ade la berminggu gak ak cmtu...
sedey tau...
ak mane penah berenggang dgn mak...
tp demi kesihatan mak, ak redha...
tu pengorbanan ku....

 eeeiiiii korg!
pak uteh ak ad mercz CLK 200  dua pintu...
rugged giler....
umo da nk 70 kot...
rezeki die...
korg ade?
ak pn xde....
xpe, kite usaha sme2 k....bia dpt bli kete lbh mahal dr tu...
insyaAllah...nothing impossible....

back to topic!
cite ak plak tingglkn mak ak.....bkn bls dendam, tp ak dpt twrn blja kt u...
tu 1st time menetap d lua kwsn...sedey tgk mak tinggl sorg2 cz ayah da xde tyme tu...tp nk wat cmne, da rezeki, xley tolak...mak pn izinkn...asalkn slalu call n lau bole slalu blik...xjauh sgt pn cz kl lg jauh dr u tu...hehe....

then smpai la pd mse ak d tingglkn oleh die...
sape? pk la sndri ye....

dan disember kali ni ak d tingglkn oleh student2 phrmacy yg agk rmai gak...
patah tulg kaki n tgn gak tu nt....cz dorg da byk membantu kami...nk harap staff, mmg x ckup... tp yg pelik tu, dlm KATENYE phrmacy xckup staff, ade je yg ilek2, lepak2...urmmm..xphm la hai....

da genap sbulan da teruna 3 org tu tingglkn ak wlau pn dorg x tingglkn ak pd bln disember....haha...mohtip? perlu ke disember gak cik manis oi.... cmne la dorg skrg ek? musti melopong xtau nk watpe kt uma tu...dok tenung syiling kire cicak....KOMPEM!!! agagagaga.....

hakikatnye ak pn sme....busan wei xde geng nk kua sme....gugurlz pn da blah...bole serentak lak tu rmai2....aptb....xpe....hope pasni ad lg yg gegiler cm dorg....supaye ak ley bekerje dgn gilerny d phrmcy pkr pu3 tu......what a workaholic gurl....xpe....sementare masih bujang....kumpul la wet byk2....da berlaki kang kne jage laki n ank2 lak.....CEETTTTT....jauh pk????

wateva la uols....
perut i ni meragam....lapo....tgh2 mlm bute ni la die nk mintak upah...x sabo nk tgu subuh....lau da jnis perut x mkn saman n x phm bahase, gitu la gayenye....plus tgh xde geng lak ni.....aiissshhh....parah....

k la uols...nk tenteram perut....nk join?
hot milk je yg ade....baik tuk kesihatan tulang....esp gugurl cm ak...hehe...
daaaa~~~~~

~~DECEMBER~~

Salam my sweet diary~~~

da lme ak x update blog ni kn? harap je ad blog sndri, tp mls nk update, x gune gak kn....

byk je bnde nk cite sbnrny....dr pemerhatian smpai la ke pemikiran...tp ak lbh suke manjekn jari jemari aku ni....dok diam, biarkn je ati berkate2...mls nk menaip....once da start, x reti nk stop lak nt.... x caye, bace je la nukilan ati ni till d end...

kejap je da smpai disember....what december mean to u? urmm.....aku?

aku? xyah la tau...x penting pn....pe? nk tau gak? xyah la...korg gak yg bosan bc cite ak ni nt...pe? korg x kesah? hade ak kesah? arghh....wateva...x kesah la korg nk tau @ x, ak tetap nk cite....BACA!!!

december mean holiday for school student....

december mean anniversary for my angah...

december mean tumpulkan mata pisau penoreh getah for my late pa...

(yela, ujan, getah cair, xley menoreh....

pe? korg x phm? bia ak je phm sndri,

tugas korg, BACA je k....)

and.....

december mean.....

i've been left.....

haha....

such a 'wonderful event' i had....

simply he said, 'da xde ati.....'

is that so simple?

a simple way to end up a 'SIMPLE' relationship we had....

such a @$%$%^&*.....

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i don't know how to describe my feeling that time....

for almost 5 yrs of knowing each other....

and for almost 3 yrs of being couple...

is that so SIMPLE?

if u were me, what would u do?

think....

past is past right?

let bygone be bygone...

i know that i'm strong enough to face it....

thanks to all supporters....

my lovely fmily & frenz....

now, i can stand on my own feet....

one who come, will go away eventually...

right?

see, i told u....

once i start, i hardly stop it....

hope u have nice dream tonight.....

~~~nyte~~~